December 7, 2009: Today I did a Ham-Sa/So-Ham meditation, guided by Paul Grilley’s Chakra Meditation DVD. In this practice, you start at the lowest chakra at the base of the spine, repeating repeat “Ham” on the inhale and “Sa” on the exhale. As you move up through each successive chakra, you repeat the same mantra, eventually drawing the energy all the way from the base of the spine to the crown of the head. When you reach the crown of the head, you say “So” on the inhale and “Ham” on the exhale and move the energy back down, pausing at each chakra, until you return to the base of the spine. Then you sit quietly, feeling the flow of energy up and down the spine. Once again, I was very sensitive to the flow of prana and could feel it at each chakra and, after both mantras, could feel it flowing up and down my spine. But, following the So-Ham practice, I actually felt slightly nauseous. When I ended the meditation (it was probably a total of 18 minutes or so) I felt withdrawn and somewhat low energy. Shortly after the meditation, I had to leave for a martial arts class. The mild nausea had subsided but in class I found myself less focused and more easily irritated. My movements felt slower and they seemed to require more effort. Following martial arts, I had dinner with a few close friends. Physically I felt fine but emotionally I continued to feel slightly disconnected. It was harder to communicate. It was almost as if there was a thin veil between me and the world around me and I was having difficulty pushing it aside.